The Distant Memory

Once I knew how to smile;
Troubles no nearer than a mile.
'Tis heart once felt the light
And she was such a sight.


Yes, she was once so real.
Fate, with her arms, love she did steal.
Now I am in the dark
My only memory--a painful mark.


I lay six feet under ground
Still, she stalks me like a bloodhound.
But who is this woman--
Digs deep to my core of a man?


Deep, deep inside my mind,
I feel her lurk from behind
A wisp from my psyche
Was once mine, but has now broken free


Haunt me not anymore
Now, thou art not my paramour
Now an old surreal myth
Once told from between yellow teeth.

I Want to Feel Alive

I've been wondering
I've been listening
Am I still living?
Is this still breathing?


I've always felt weak
My true self I seek
Hold my hand
I want to take my stand


I've been through so much
Felt lonely so much
Trapped in my own cage
Been feeling so strange


I'm calling you
Make me new
My faith's with you
I want to feel new


I want to feel alive
I want to break free from myself
I want to be me again
Instead of this soulless mannequin
Together let's pray
And take me far away


Make me feel loved again
Take me back to heaven
I want to leave myself behind
And rise with a new mind


Take my hand
Help me stand
Paint a smile
In my life
Stay by me
Never leave
You are my last hope




I want to feel alive
I want to break free from myself
I want to be me again
Instead of this soulless mannequin
Together let's pray
And take me far away


Take me far away where I'll never see
Whatever atrocities I did to me
Make me see the dawn of a new light
Join me in my brand new fight

Streak of Light

Hello, shooting star
A small streak of light
In the gloomy night
Take me somewhere far


Hiya, tiny light
Where are you going?
In here it's boring
C'mon, take my life


When will you be back
I've been out of luck
Wish you could take me
Far beyond the sea
Where no one can see


Hey, you bright specter
Why are you happy?
Why are you so free?
Write me a letter


Hola, estrella
Please take me with you
Anywhere will do
Take me away now


Wish you could
Give me back my smile
Give me back my life
Tell me how to
Be a better man
Be not who I am


All hope has left me
Love has forsaken me
Oh please let me see
What life has for me


Wish you could
Give me back my smile
Give me back my life
Tell me how to
Be a better man
Be not who I am


Turn not a deaf ear to me
Hear my weak but solemn plea


Take me away where I could live
Make me smile so I'll believe

Streak of Light

Mortal Enemy

I am plagued by myself
My own reflection threatens me
My very existence crumbles inward
Save me from my self-destruction drive


I am a monster itching to come out
My soul is a timebomb; ticking my sanity away
My shadow smirks behind me; breathing words of hatred
Reach out your hand for me


I am a prison of sorts
My heart crammed full of sorrows and pain
My mind filled with unanswered questions
Hand me the key; free me from myself


I am a fearsome weapon
My hands bring forth messages of pain
My thought causes lives to shatter
Disarm me; release me from my curse


I am a potent poison
My blood smells like sulfur; it tastes like Death
My fluids burn through life like acid
Neutralize me; I'm a threat to myself


I am my mortal enemy
My own bitter deadly foe
My last hope is myself
Leave me be; lest you be harmed as well